Haha alright another post today, also rather late one coz I was writing my essay earlier on. Didn't had school today coz no bio tutorial & no ccs tutorial coz it was postpone to next tues as well as my grp presentation. So met up with my classmates to go to june's place. She invited us over to her place. Seriously had alot of laughter from anyone. Her house is very pleasant looking to me. =) The pics could be found on june's blog, so go take a look. Some are really hilarious. If my mum would to see the pics which I had took with the girls.. she might go nagging again. loL.. hope she dun see them. Haha. Anyways had to lie abt going to meet my fren at "woodlands" juz to follow them to get stuff to gv to june today. We put in alot of effort into making the hamper to make it look presentable, with onlookers juz keep wondering what on earth are we doing in a corner somewhr in the shopping centre. Haha Anyways.. really had fun at june's place. Thx alot.. luckily I didn't get a tummyache after so much of the chilli with the shredded fish snack thing. loL..

Alright then..see u all in my next post..think I'm gonna change my blogskin soon when I hv the time.. =)
what is past shld stay in the past..kept as a memory..

lol.. a rather late post before heading for bed. Had a quite a long day today. Started with group meeting at 9.30. Then had ccs lecture for an hr then had bio lecture, break then another bio lecture. Quite retarded right, can't they juz put it tgt. After that , went out. Haha , had a real tiring day coz I slept late the day before , so was really tired. Reached home abt 6.30 close to 7. Did my assignment writing awhile ago, had 200+ words only thx to the help of a few people. =)

Haven't been sleeping well recently..coz of certain matters including my assignment. Everytime I close my eyes & goes to slp , I'll hv nightmares that I wish wouldn't happen. One of which includes being all alone with no one actually know that I existed. Isn't that freaky? Imagine one day, everyone around juz doesn't care abt u anymore , no one is there for u to share ur thoughts with.A world of isolation & coldness , without a single glimpse of light to guide ur way through difficult times..my dreams makes me dun wanna go to slp..wasting my slp time away juz lying on the mattress or juz staying up later to keep my thoughts away from that dark nightmare devouring me..

A final qn for all to think abt if u would like to.. is ur family or ur bf/gf more impt to u ? the choice is yours to make..

Gd nite all..I hope my nightmares may turn into smth much more pleasant.
it's really difficult to juz let go like this..

Happy CNY to all~ Ok I didn't blog for a few days..was rather busy with visiting & ppl visiting us. 1st day of new yr was already a killer. Didn't really visit anyone but got ppl visit including my dad's fren who stayed in my house for quite some time & also my 2nd uncle, so had to entertain them. My dad's fren's daughter has became prettier compared to the previous time,according to my parents & sis. Actually I think so too ! HaHa..then went grandma's(mum's mum) place at night coz they were out the whole day.

The 2nd day of new yr was more like wasting time away in the morning.. then came the aftn when my 3rd aunt-in-law came over with my 2 cousins & my niece. Lol.. saw my niece for the 1st time, only got to see her pic on facebook before that. She looks more cute in real life. HaHa. Dad's fren came over too but then after 3rd aunt-in-law left , my sis , godbro & I went out to play with our neighbours already. LOL ! Supposed to be like in there doing smth supposed to be done.. 4th aunt came later, parents not around , so had to go downstairs to collect food & 2 more red packets from 3rd aunt & 6th aunt. Thought of doing my assignment ytd night..but I couldn't take it anymore..knock off at around 9+..

I shall do my assignment introduction part tonight hopefully.. haha
Alright all gd nite all~
nth wrong being jealous right ?

Oh my..had a damn long day today. Woke up at 7.. couldn't really slp at night..think I'm becoming insomniac. Anyways..followed my parents to buy stuff for prayers today. Went to somewhr near the industrial park area to buy chicken & duck..the queue was so damn long. Had no choice but to go somewhr else to get the stuff. Then reached home around 11. Helped with lots of stuff including preparing the stuff neccessary for prayers etc. Prayed til almost 1. Forgot what I did after that in the aftn other than lunch & going to bath. Fell aslp on the sofa for dunno how long then notice dad was washing the fish tank coz it was rather late last night so didn't wash. After that , helped my dad with the cleaning of all the little sculptures of the gods. Helped him to clean one of the god's sabre. Polished it til it really shines. Okay then..my uncle & aunt came over for reunion dinner. Went downstairs after dinner to play with the sparklers & candles from 8-9, dun seem like 1hr had passed. Lol. Anyways..came up after that to watch tv. Bathed at ard 10.30. LOL. Feeling damn tired, these few days I've been unable to slp properly. I think I hv too much stress out of a sudden, thinking abt things I shld juz put aside for now. Nvm..I'll try to forget abt it.

Alright all , signing off. Advanced Happy CNY to all ~
why am I wondering so much? such things will definitely not happen

Okay..woke up freaking early today at 6.30 ? Yeah..went with my mum & sis to help at my dad's stall. Was seriously so busy like hell lah. Got to bring the stuff here & there. Measure the weight of all the fish & prawns & also packed them up. Was more of a trouble than helping. LoL. But did helped abit lah. HaHa. Ended at around 2+ , nid to wash everything so left the place at around 3+. Okay..I'm so damn tired lah. It's like standing up from morning til noon. Had lunch around 4+. Wah really had no time for lunch til then sia. Freaking hungry so ate so fast that I almost choked on my food. But b4 eating went to bath 1st coz I really smell more or less like a fish myself. HaHa. After that, still hv to go over to my uncle's place to deliver his oranges & fish at around 5. He made 2 laterns for us. Looks freaking awesome lah. K..so after that, came back home. Went downstairs again ! Coz my 2nd aunt came over to gave us some new yr goodies & 2 red packets for my sis & I. So far already had 3 red packets even b4 CNY is here. Cool huh ? Anyways..chat for awhile then came upstairs. Waited for dad to hv take his shower & took the mrt down to my grandma's (mum's mum) place for reunion dinner. Tml will be dad's side of reunion dinner. Was really really tired by then & also damn thirsty ! My fluid intake for today was like not even 1L of water. So stayed at grandma's place for awhile then headed home. Dad wanna do smth with the prayer stuff & wash fish tank like right after my this post.. I wonder what time would I get to go to bed.. nvm abt that. anyways..godbro coming over for a few days b4 going back. It's CNY.. he juz wanna be here..so mum said on CNY the day itself, we're gonna send him home at night coz he'll be visiting his grandma's house then. So ya..

Alright then all..see u all soon.. wonder if I hv time to post tml.. =)
maybe spending more time with family members is the best way to stay happy..u think so?

Today started with bio tutorial at 8 , so damn early , was damn tired. Then was having break in between b4 having pnpe tutorial. Was presenting nonsense . HaHa , but ya.. was rather last min for the no marks presentation. Lesson ended early so went on to start project earlier at around 10.30 . Then ended around 12+ . Then when I reached home , my maid was washing the living room floor for CNY . So I had to stay inside my room & eat. Then around 3+ , was really damn tired. So slept for abt an hr & juz nice my parents came back from the market already. Got quite a no. of stuff to carry up. Nth much happened from then on til at night. Was told that my 2nd auntie would be coming but most probably she's too busy to come over , so maybe tml she'll come over. Got smth that she wanna gv us, most probably is the red packet. Haha . Already got 2 despite the fact that CNY is still a few days away. Tml would be helping my dad at his market coz tml will hv lots of customers, hv to wake up earlier to go over.

Alright then all , see u in the next post. =)
more red packets pls~

Alright juz another day. I couldn't slp long. Got stuck awake at ard 4 til 6+.. Was really damn tired & got pissed off by someone. Shall not go on further. Anyways..started sch at 9 with a tutorial to begin with. Had 2 groups presenting today & then no more psychology lectures & tutorial anymore but there is an exam to keep us at bay. =.=" Anyways..had meeting in between b4 the css lecture then came the bio lecture. Had a 2hr break coz 2 lectures were kinda squeeze into 1. Didn't finish my lunch today..it's been quite a while smth like this would happen. It must be bcoz of my mood today & also my tiredness. Okay..then had bio practical class that started at 3 -5 . Headed home with lots of classmates today coz some of them were going to eat out. The rest of the day was juz tv all the way. Came online at 9...need to get smth done which I forgotten what was it actually. Trying to recall while finding some useful stuff for the project.

So gd nite all , signing off..
it's already very miserable & u're still bringing ppl down..

Sch started early at 9 today..rather tired coz went to slp later than usual . Started with bio lecture which lasted for abt an hr or so. Then had tutorial at 11, was a presentation by some of my classmates. Then after class, followed those who wanted to go see lecturer b4 the test later on. Okay..so after that was rather in a rush to go to the test area coz I was someone's model . That fella didn't make it though, he was rather nervous suddenly. After that at 4 had a briefing on our attachment to polyclinic , lasted for abt half an hr. So go home after that..was seriously damn tired , was really dozing off on my sofa again. I think I shld try to go to bed earlier these days. Oh & Mizan if u do read this post , I'm sorry for the middle finger. I was rather upset over smth that I wasn't in the right mind when my finger juz came out like that. I'm seriously damn sorry if I angered u in any way. I apologised sincerely..

Alright all signing off..gd nite
I wish I could do smth to make u smile brightly again..

Started out today at 9 with clinical lab class . Had a 2 hr break in between but had grp meeting for abt an hr. Then proceed to PNPE lecture which last for abt an hr. Hopefully next wk no more lecture , then dun hv to stay in sch until so late. Yeah so went home after that at around 2 ? Reached home , had more lunch & watched tv. Was quite tired til I dozed off on the sofa for abt 15mins i think.. At around 6, my mum called home to ask me go downstairs 20mins later to take some stuff that my aunties got for us, mostly CNY goodies & 2 red packets for my sis & I. Didn't really recognised them coz my dad ain't on good terms with them..so ya.. Had dinner earlier today with a little more rice than usual. Carried on with going online to do some research for my project. But I doing for awhile only coz I'm damn tired. Think I'm going to slp early today.

Alright all see u in the next post..nites..
may god be with you..Amen..

Ok didn't blog for quite awhile coz hv nth to blog on. Haha. Anyways..back to sch.. had SBL at 9 today & a lecture at 12. After that, followed some of my classmates to meet a lecturer regarding the HA skill test on wed. After that, went back home . Reached home ard 3+ . Watched tv for the whole aftn. LOL . Then this man came to my doorstep & ask me to help him with a survey regarding the ways to get the latest news, whether through the old media way or the new.. so juz answered his qn & done. Had a very tired day, I wonder why am I so tired lately..I do hv enough slp rite ? Anyways, doing my research at night after blogging. So let's stop here for today alright.

Gd nite all..think I'll be up later than usual..
happiness comes from ppl who gv it to u or juz by how u look at it..

Been quite a few days since I blogged. Had small assignments & 2 tests in these few days. 1st was the HA skill assessment. Was considered lucky that the lecturer didn't fail me bcoz I felt that I might hv failed if it was another lecturer taking me. I was really blank when I enter the room. But well..I passed that's what matter most right ? lol . 2nd was the bio practical test. I only started studying like the morning which was less than even a day b4 the test. HaHa , I hope I do passed coz it's like a matter of life & death to me. Anyways..the wk was rather stressful so to speak. Had lots of ups & downs but everything turned out okay. Can't remember much abt this wk other than the tests. HaHa

So alright see u all in my next post =)
reach out to u.. touch my hand

Back to sch after the few days break. Went back to sch early with Murni to watch the VOD in the library. Luckily,I brought my laptop along, the computer there was seriously lagging like hell in the morning. Stayed there til 11 like that, a few other classmates came along like mizan , naqiah & shima. Then went for lecture thinking that there was one at 11 but actually it was an e-lecture so lecture starts at 12. LOL !! So June & I went to hand in our computer applications assignment tgt for ourselves as well as for mizan & naqiah. So after lecture , stayed behind for awhile, followed some of them around. 1st to the e-plaza which was packed so we went to the bio room where the stuff are kept. Had quite a no. of computers there. So a few of us sat down to use facebook. HaHa !! A few went to another com to loan laptops which looks freaking good like much better compared to my processor etc. I also helped a few of my classmates with their mandarin elective listening test after that. Was quite fun doing it I must say, it's more like a guessing game instead of a Q & A session. After that , left coz the mandarin class was gonna start soon. June , Naqiah & Mizan went to library, I follow Aisyah,Murni,Shima & Hawa to the class then wish them gd luck then left for home.

The day kinda ended there until the night when I juz finished up my assignment needed to be handed in by tml & also juz play around with the facebook applications. LoL

So alright gd night all ~
a little too not over you...

Another wk is over so quickly. This wk is definitely going to be a busy wk for me. Got packed with test & a few other stuff to do. Today morning went basketball wif greg & devnath. My sis tagged along coz she had no one to play with. LOL . Went back to sch to play , so at around 11+ when the church service over there was over , a group of primary sch children came out with a soccer ball, so decided to play soccer with them. Got thrashed though , lol , didn't really play properly lah, coz they were so small in size , imagine if u kick the ball so hard & hit them..u nv wanna know what's gonna happen next. Therefore , end up losing lah, have to give chance mah. LoL .

Spent the aftn helping my dad's fren to "fix" his new hp. He didn't really know how to use it yet. So ya..was wanting to do my assignment needed to handed in by this tues, but decide to do it later today or tml in sch. So hopefully I'll get it done & send it to the lecturer.

So... gd nite all ~
impt or not impt, it might not matter to that person..but to me... u r impt

Ah yes..another day in the new yr..lol . Was really slack the whole day but actually wanted to get some work done. Was commented on my hair by my neighbour that I look freaking dumb & why is it so short. Okay..anyways..I think so too..but let's juz wait for my hair to grow back lah since it's already been cutted. Wasted my day away by watching tv & some other stuff. Think tml I will study definitely after I finish my basketball game in the morning. (=

Alright a short post for today. Gd nites ~
it doesn't matter whether the other person thinks u r impt or not, as long as I think u r impt to me..

Alright , it's another day with another post. Today is e-learning day so no school. Sound cool huh? But no , it sucks totally. Had to do some downloading of files being uploaded by the lecturers. Still alright , only 1 file can't be opened, can't be bothered to either. Had to do a survey as a way to track our attendance that we had login to do our downloading of stuff & read up on what we're supposed to do. Had a couple of assignment need to be sent to respective lecturers for them to hv a look. Can't be bothered abt why though. Juz know that we need to do & hand in. Anyways..went to cut my hair today aftn, looks freaking ugly coz I left most of my hair at the back which makes me look like my head is freaking long or smth.

For a long time have it been since I felt warmth from the people that I longed for their care & concern. It's was like the best time of my life after a very long time had I been treated not as a invisible object blocking the way but as a living person standing right before them. Their key of light & warmth have brought me out of this dark terror feasting on my mind to turn me cold towards people as well as myself. I'm feeling much better already.
it's the love that brought me back alive..

Today was a short day. Had presentation early at 9. Lecturer said it was a good job but his face didn't say the same thing. His face was like quite black like so strict with the presentation or smth. Weird.. Anyways.. had lecture for an hr on css. Rather boring seriously. Today's also the NYP open house as well as a few of the other polys. A few of our classmates were called to be guides for the ppl or maybe the secondary sch students who were coming in for the open house. Went home to rest , watched twilight again after I've downloaded it ytd night. Waiting for Yes man & Bedtime stories to come out on the program I used to download the movies.

I feel rather neglected of myself. I dun really bother abt my own feelings , the feelings of ppl around me also. I think I've really turned cold on the inside although I appear still cheerful on the outside. Deep inside , I am being cold to myself. I dun wan anyone to sympathize me or anything. I juz wanna sort out all the thoughts going through my mind , maybe I would be able to step out of it one day & be alright again. For now.. I'm imprisoning myself in a cold , dark cell. Pls dun open the door with ur keys.. I wish to be alone..

Today was like a wk since the new yr hv started. Sch started at 9 with bio lecture , then css tutorial & lastly HA practical class. Next is like my skill test for HA & also bio practical test. Also tml is like my presentation, I'm so not prepared for it seriously. I finished my lunch juz b4 I started to blog ,ate so late coz during break time was having a dry run for the presentation tml , had lots of problems still, but I think it's gonna be okay by tml.

I seem to hv changed since the yr hv started. I've been rather cold to ppl..I think.. I'm emo-ing more than b4 despite the fact that I dun wan to. I'm starting to feel everything different in me. Am I going through a change to become someone I do not want to be? I might be turning bad , a very bad person & no one will know..

what do I exist for ...

Another day.. wasted time in sch like wth. Okay..firstly no one knew there isn't any lecture this wk for HS 1089 therefore ppl ended up going to sch for the 2hr lecture to find out that there was no lecture. So.. ended up going to sch to waste my time !! Supposedly starting sch at 1 but then wasted time all the way to 4 for a like 10-15min tutorial. Quite pathetic right? Can't be bothered anyways..
I seem like I was emo-ing today. Do I? I think maybe it's bcoz I felt some heat in between my nose & my upper lip which is causing me to sweat & it's quite irritating. It's like I've eaten chill or smth but I didn't. Anyways..this is it for today's sch. Tml will be another boring day for sure, actually everyday seems to be boring. Got a presentation this thursday, quite unprepared for it. Hopefully it would turn out okay for me..

Alright all signing off nites ~
am i juz being paranoid or are certain ppl juz pretending that I dun exist anymore...

Today a rather short day, went sch early at 9 for grp meeting. Lessons officially started at 11.10 . Lecturer was really rushing through the slides coz there were too many slides to be completed in 2 hrs plus there were stuff to be written on the notes therefore lecturer needs to rush. She was rather mad at those ppl who didn't turned up for lecture. She also said that if those who dun wan to come shldn't even get ppl to tap for them or to tap & go off. If those who do it again, she's going to do manual attendance taking.

After that left for home already , was quite early , around 1+ . Then the day juz moves like normally everyday life. Everyday seems to be the same, nth special seems to want to appear to surprise me. I feel that I hv no life. Haiz I'm like this..
Anyways.. got a new song on my playlist, listen to it, it's very nice, I love it. Do listen to it =)

it juz seems not to stop bleeding..

Ok I'm back blogging ^^ Was rather unwell on friday. Got a fever , headache & sore throat . Got better by ytd leaving a sore throat til today. Hopefully by tml I will be okay. On friday , I was so sick that when I step into my house I juz went straight flat onto the sofa without saying a word. Mum had to take me to the doctor at night despite me not wanting to. I know if I waste more time, dun think I'll be able to blog today. Thank god..

Anyways..since I got ytd I started to watched some movies. Okay.. was quite lame.. HSM 3 & Pokemon . LOL ! Today I watched Scorpion King 2 . I was seriously bored til I decided to watch all this movies. Also did research for my project for the presentation this coming thursday morning . I wish we dun screw up like what happened in our previous presentation.

Alright all.. think I'm gonna go watch another movie. HaHa. Gd nites ~
i know my love is there waiting for me

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !! Okay this post is quite late though . HaHa !! Anyways.. it seems like any other day to me. Today was also my youngest uncle death anniversary. When I was still young , he passed away. I dun hv much memory abt him. It's quite sad that 3 of my dad's brothers , my uncles , had already passed on. Time sure past very fast. Ytd I was still sitting in front of my laptop & watching tv, sound like I'm emo-ing or smth. LoL, anyways it's the new year , so shld stop emo-ing so often now. Shld learn to look on the bright side of life.

I hv a qn for myself as well as those who might read my blog. Is there a need for a change in this new year ? Or things shld juz stick to status quo ? Shld I hv a change in myself to help make others more happy or shld I juz stick to what I am & juz try & improve to be better without a need to change? Tags are welcome , I won't mind ur comments given.

Alright everybody.. see u in my next post
my new yr resolution is to find someone that would love me & for me to love...

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My name is Aaron Lim.
Birthday:21 August 1991
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Race:Chinese
Zodiac:Yr of the Sheep
Horoscope:Leo
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Haha alright another post today, also rather late one coz I was writing my essay earlier on. Didn't had school today coz no bio tutorial & no ccs tutorial coz it was postpone to next tues as well as my grp presentation. So met up with my classmates to go to june's place. She invited us over to her place. Seriously had alot of laughter from anyone. Her house is very pleasant looking to me. =) The pics could be found on june's blog, so go take a look. Some are really hilarious. If my mum would to see the pics which I had took with the girls.. she might go nagging again. loL.. hope she dun see them. Haha. Anyways had to lie abt going to meet my fren at "woodlands" juz to follow them to get stuff to gv to june today. We put in alot of effort into making the hamper to make it look presentable, with onlookers juz keep wondering what on earth are we doing in a corner somewhr in the shopping centre. Haha Anyways.. really had fun at june's place. Thx alot.. luckily I didn't get a tummyache after so much of the chilli with the shredded fish snack thing. loL..

Alright then..see u all in my next post..think I'm gonna change my blogskin soon when I hv the time.. =)
what is past shld stay in the past..kept as a memory..

lol.. a rather late post before heading for bed. Had a quite a long day today. Started with group meeting at 9.30. Then had ccs lecture for an hr then had bio lecture, break then another bio lecture. Quite retarded right, can't they juz put it tgt. After that , went out. Haha , had a real tiring day coz I slept late the day before , so was really tired. Reached home abt 6.30 close to 7. Did my assignment writing awhile ago, had 200+ words only thx to the help of a few people. =)

Haven't been sleeping well recently..coz of certain matters including my assignment. Everytime I close my eyes & goes to slp , I'll hv nightmares that I wish wouldn't happen. One of which includes being all alone with no one actually know that I existed. Isn't that freaky? Imagine one day, everyone around juz doesn't care abt u anymore , no one is there for u to share ur thoughts with.A world of isolation & coldness , without a single glimpse of light to guide ur way through difficult times..my dreams makes me dun wanna go to slp..wasting my slp time away juz lying on the mattress or juz staying up later to keep my thoughts away from that dark nightmare devouring me..

A final qn for all to think abt if u would like to.. is ur family or ur bf/gf more impt to u ? the choice is yours to make..

Gd nite all..I hope my nightmares may turn into smth much more pleasant.
it's really difficult to juz let go like this..

Happy CNY to all~ Ok I didn't blog for a few days..was rather busy with visiting & ppl visiting us. 1st day of new yr was already a killer. Didn't really visit anyone but got ppl visit including my dad's fren who stayed in my house for quite some time & also my 2nd uncle, so had to entertain them. My dad's fren's daughter has became prettier compared to the previous time,according to my parents & sis. Actually I think so too ! HaHa..then went grandma's(mum's mum) place at night coz they were out the whole day.

The 2nd day of new yr was more like wasting time away in the morning.. then came the aftn when my 3rd aunt-in-law came over with my 2 cousins & my niece. Lol.. saw my niece for the 1st time, only got to see her pic on facebook before that. She looks more cute in real life. HaHa. Dad's fren came over too but then after 3rd aunt-in-law left , my sis , godbro & I went out to play with our neighbours already. LOL ! Supposed to be like in there doing smth supposed to be done.. 4th aunt came later, parents not around , so had to go downstairs to collect food & 2 more red packets from 3rd aunt & 6th aunt. Thought of doing my assignment ytd night..but I couldn't take it anymore..knock off at around 9+..

I shall do my assignment introduction part tonight hopefully.. haha
Alright all gd nite all~
nth wrong being jealous right ?

Oh my..had a damn long day today. Woke up at 7.. couldn't really slp at night..think I'm becoming insomniac. Anyways..followed my parents to buy stuff for prayers today. Went to somewhr near the industrial park area to buy chicken & duck..the queue was so damn long. Had no choice but to go somewhr else to get the stuff. Then reached home around 11. Helped with lots of stuff including preparing the stuff neccessary for prayers etc. Prayed til almost 1. Forgot what I did after that in the aftn other than lunch & going to bath. Fell aslp on the sofa for dunno how long then notice dad was washing the fish tank coz it was rather late last night so didn't wash. After that , helped my dad with the cleaning of all the little sculptures of the gods. Helped him to clean one of the god's sabre. Polished it til it really shines. Okay then..my uncle & aunt came over for reunion dinner. Went downstairs after dinner to play with the sparklers & candles from 8-9, dun seem like 1hr had passed. Lol. Anyways..came up after that to watch tv. Bathed at ard 10.30. LOL. Feeling damn tired, these few days I've been unable to slp properly. I think I hv too much stress out of a sudden, thinking abt things I shld juz put aside for now. Nvm..I'll try to forget abt it.

Alright all , signing off. Advanced Happy CNY to all ~
why am I wondering so much? such things will definitely not happen

Okay..woke up freaking early today at 6.30 ? Yeah..went with my mum & sis to help at my dad's stall. Was seriously so busy like hell lah. Got to bring the stuff here & there. Measure the weight of all the fish & prawns & also packed them up. Was more of a trouble than helping. LoL. But did helped abit lah. HaHa. Ended at around 2+ , nid to wash everything so left the place at around 3+. Okay..I'm so damn tired lah. It's like standing up from morning til noon. Had lunch around 4+. Wah really had no time for lunch til then sia. Freaking hungry so ate so fast that I almost choked on my food. But b4 eating went to bath 1st coz I really smell more or less like a fish myself. HaHa. After that, still hv to go over to my uncle's place to deliver his oranges & fish at around 5. He made 2 laterns for us. Looks freaking awesome lah. K..so after that, came back home. Went downstairs again ! Coz my 2nd aunt came over to gave us some new yr goodies & 2 red packets for my sis & I. So far already had 3 red packets even b4 CNY is here. Cool huh ? Anyways..chat for awhile then came upstairs. Waited for dad to hv take his shower & took the mrt down to my grandma's (mum's mum) place for reunion dinner. Tml will be dad's side of reunion dinner. Was really really tired by then & also damn thirsty ! My fluid intake for today was like not even 1L of water. So stayed at grandma's place for awhile then headed home. Dad wanna do smth with the prayer stuff & wash fish tank like right after my this post.. I wonder what time would I get to go to bed.. nvm abt that. anyways..godbro coming over for a few days b4 going back. It's CNY.. he juz wanna be here..so mum said on CNY the day itself, we're gonna send him home at night coz he'll be visiting his grandma's house then. So ya..

Alright then all..see u all soon.. wonder if I hv time to post tml.. =)
maybe spending more time with family members is the best way to stay happy..u think so?

Today started with bio tutorial at 8 , so damn early , was damn tired. Then was having break in between b4 having pnpe tutorial. Was presenting nonsense . HaHa , but ya.. was rather last min for the no marks presentation. Lesson ended early so went on to start project earlier at around 10.30 . Then ended around 12+ . Then when I reached home , my maid was washing the living room floor for CNY . So I had to stay inside my room & eat. Then around 3+ , was really damn tired. So slept for abt an hr & juz nice my parents came back from the market already. Got quite a no. of stuff to carry up. Nth much happened from then on til at night. Was told that my 2nd auntie would be coming but most probably she's too busy to come over , so maybe tml she'll come over. Got smth that she wanna gv us, most probably is the red packet. Haha . Already got 2 despite the fact that CNY is still a few days away. Tml would be helping my dad at his market coz tml will hv lots of customers, hv to wake up earlier to go over.

Alright then all , see u in the next post. =)
more red packets pls~

Alright juz another day. I couldn't slp long. Got stuck awake at ard 4 til 6+.. Was really damn tired & got pissed off by someone. Shall not go on further. Anyways..started sch at 9 with a tutorial to begin with. Had 2 groups presenting today & then no more psychology lectures & tutorial anymore but there is an exam to keep us at bay. =.=" Anyways..had meeting in between b4 the css lecture then came the bio lecture. Had a 2hr break coz 2 lectures were kinda squeeze into 1. Didn't finish my lunch today..it's been quite a while smth like this would happen. It must be bcoz of my mood today & also my tiredness. Okay..then had bio practical class that started at 3 -5 . Headed home with lots of classmates today coz some of them were going to eat out. The rest of the day was juz tv all the way. Came online at 9...need to get smth done which I forgotten what was it actually. Trying to recall while finding some useful stuff for the project.

So gd nite all , signing off..
it's already very miserable & u're still bringing ppl down..

Sch started early at 9 today..rather tired coz went to slp later than usual . Started with bio lecture which lasted for abt an hr or so. Then had tutorial at 11, was a presentation by some of my classmates. Then after class, followed those who wanted to go see lecturer b4 the test later on. Okay..so after that was rather in a rush to go to the test area coz I was someone's model . That fella didn't make it though, he was rather nervous suddenly. After that at 4 had a briefing on our attachment to polyclinic , lasted for abt half an hr. So go home after that..was seriously damn tired , was really dozing off on my sofa again. I think I shld try to go to bed earlier these days. Oh & Mizan if u do read this post , I'm sorry for the middle finger. I was rather upset over smth that I wasn't in the right mind when my finger juz came out like that. I'm seriously damn sorry if I angered u in any way. I apologised sincerely..

Alright all signing off..gd nite
I wish I could do smth to make u smile brightly again..

Started out today at 9 with clinical lab class . Had a 2 hr break in between but had grp meeting for abt an hr. Then proceed to PNPE lecture which last for abt an hr. Hopefully next wk no more lecture , then dun hv to stay in sch until so late. Yeah so went home after that at around 2 ? Reached home , had more lunch & watched tv. Was quite tired til I dozed off on the sofa for abt 15mins i think.. At around 6, my mum called home to ask me go downstairs 20mins later to take some stuff that my aunties got for us, mostly CNY goodies & 2 red packets for my sis & I. Didn't really recognised them coz my dad ain't on good terms with them..so ya.. Had dinner earlier today with a little more rice than usual. Carried on with going online to do some research for my project. But I doing for awhile only coz I'm damn tired. Think I'm going to slp early today.

Alright all see u in the next post..nites..
may god be with you..Amen..

Ok didn't blog for quite awhile coz hv nth to blog on. Haha. Anyways..back to sch.. had SBL at 9 today & a lecture at 12. After that, followed some of my classmates to meet a lecturer regarding the HA skill test on wed. After that, went back home . Reached home ard 3+ . Watched tv for the whole aftn. LOL . Then this man came to my doorstep & ask me to help him with a survey regarding the ways to get the latest news, whether through the old media way or the new.. so juz answered his qn & done. Had a very tired day, I wonder why am I so tired lately..I do hv enough slp rite ? Anyways, doing my research at night after blogging. So let's stop here for today alright.

Gd nite all..think I'll be up later than usual..
happiness comes from ppl who gv it to u or juz by how u look at it..

Been quite a few days since I blogged. Had small assignments & 2 tests in these few days. 1st was the HA skill assessment. Was considered lucky that the lecturer didn't fail me bcoz I felt that I might hv failed if it was another lecturer taking me. I was really blank when I enter the room. But well..I passed that's what matter most right ? lol . 2nd was the bio practical test. I only started studying like the morning which was less than even a day b4 the test. HaHa , I hope I do passed coz it's like a matter of life & death to me. Anyways..the wk was rather stressful so to speak. Had lots of ups & downs but everything turned out okay. Can't remember much abt this wk other than the tests. HaHa

So alright see u all in my next post =)
reach out to u.. touch my hand

Back to sch after the few days break. Went back to sch early with Murni to watch the VOD in the library. Luckily,I brought my laptop along, the computer there was seriously lagging like hell in the morning. Stayed there til 11 like that, a few other classmates came along like mizan , naqiah & shima. Then went for lecture thinking that there was one at 11 but actually it was an e-lecture so lecture starts at 12. LOL !! So June & I went to hand in our computer applications assignment tgt for ourselves as well as for mizan & naqiah. So after lecture , stayed behind for awhile, followed some of them around. 1st to the e-plaza which was packed so we went to the bio room where the stuff are kept. Had quite a no. of computers there. So a few of us sat down to use facebook. HaHa !! A few went to another com to loan laptops which looks freaking good like much better compared to my processor etc. I also helped a few of my classmates with their mandarin elective listening test after that. Was quite fun doing it I must say, it's more like a guessing game instead of a Q & A session. After that , left coz the mandarin class was gonna start soon. June , Naqiah & Mizan went to library, I follow Aisyah,Murni,Shima & Hawa to the class then wish them gd luck then left for home.

The day kinda ended there until the night when I juz finished up my assignment needed to be handed in by tml & also juz play around with the facebook applications. LoL

So alright gd night all ~
a little too not over you...

Another wk is over so quickly. This wk is definitely going to be a busy wk for me. Got packed with test & a few other stuff to do. Today morning went basketball wif greg & devnath. My sis tagged along coz she had no one to play with. LOL . Went back to sch to play , so at around 11+ when the church service over there was over , a group of primary sch children came out with a soccer ball, so decided to play soccer with them. Got thrashed though , lol , didn't really play properly lah, coz they were so small in size , imagine if u kick the ball so hard & hit them..u nv wanna know what's gonna happen next. Therefore , end up losing lah, have to give chance mah. LoL .

Spent the aftn helping my dad's fren to "fix" his new hp. He didn't really know how to use it yet. So ya..was wanting to do my assignment needed to handed in by this tues, but decide to do it later today or tml in sch. So hopefully I'll get it done & send it to the lecturer.

So... gd nite all ~
impt or not impt, it might not matter to that person..but to me... u r impt

Ah yes..another day in the new yr..lol . Was really slack the whole day but actually wanted to get some work done. Was commented on my hair by my neighbour that I look freaking dumb & why is it so short. Okay..anyways..I think so too..but let's juz wait for my hair to grow back lah since it's already been cutted. Wasted my day away by watching tv & some other stuff. Think tml I will study definitely after I finish my basketball game in the morning. (=

Alright a short post for today. Gd nites ~
it doesn't matter whether the other person thinks u r impt or not, as long as I think u r impt to me..

Alright , it's another day with another post. Today is e-learning day so no school. Sound cool huh? But no , it sucks totally. Had to do some downloading of files being uploaded by the lecturers. Still alright , only 1 file can't be opened, can't be bothered to either. Had to do a survey as a way to track our attendance that we had login to do our downloading of stuff & read up on what we're supposed to do. Had a couple of assignment need to be sent to respective lecturers for them to hv a look. Can't be bothered abt why though. Juz know that we need to do & hand in. Anyways..went to cut my hair today aftn, looks freaking ugly coz I left most of my hair at the back which makes me look like my head is freaking long or smth.

For a long time have it been since I felt warmth from the people that I longed for their care & concern. It's was like the best time of my life after a very long time had I been treated not as a invisible object blocking the way but as a living person standing right before them. Their key of light & warmth have brought me out of this dark terror feasting on my mind to turn me cold towards people as well as myself. I'm feeling much better already.
it's the love that brought me back alive..

Today was a short day. Had presentation early at 9. Lecturer said it was a good job but his face didn't say the same thing. His face was like quite black like so strict with the presentation or smth. Weird.. Anyways.. had lecture for an hr on css. Rather boring seriously. Today's also the NYP open house as well as a few of the other polys. A few of our classmates were called to be guides for the ppl or maybe the secondary sch students who were coming in for the open house. Went home to rest , watched twilight again after I've downloaded it ytd night. Waiting for Yes man & Bedtime stories to come out on the program I used to download the movies.

I feel rather neglected of myself. I dun really bother abt my own feelings , the feelings of ppl around me also. I think I've really turned cold on the inside although I appear still cheerful on the outside. Deep inside , I am being cold to myself. I dun wan anyone to sympathize me or anything. I juz wanna sort out all the thoughts going through my mind , maybe I would be able to step out of it one day & be alright again. For now.. I'm imprisoning myself in a cold , dark cell. Pls dun open the door with ur keys.. I wish to be alone..

Today was like a wk since the new yr hv started. Sch started at 9 with bio lecture , then css tutorial & lastly HA practical class. Next is like my skill test for HA & also bio practical test. Also tml is like my presentation, I'm so not prepared for it seriously. I finished my lunch juz b4 I started to blog ,ate so late coz during break time was having a dry run for the presentation tml , had lots of problems still, but I think it's gonna be okay by tml.

I seem to hv changed since the yr hv started. I've been rather cold to ppl..I think.. I'm emo-ing more than b4 despite the fact that I dun wan to. I'm starting to feel everything different in me. Am I going through a change to become someone I do not want to be? I might be turning bad , a very bad person & no one will know..

what do I exist for ...

Another day.. wasted time in sch like wth. Okay..firstly no one knew there isn't any lecture this wk for HS 1089 therefore ppl ended up going to sch for the 2hr lecture to find out that there was no lecture. So.. ended up going to sch to waste my time !! Supposedly starting sch at 1 but then wasted time all the way to 4 for a like 10-15min tutorial. Quite pathetic right? Can't be bothered anyways..
I seem like I was emo-ing today. Do I? I think maybe it's bcoz I felt some heat in between my nose & my upper lip which is causing me to sweat & it's quite irritating. It's like I've eaten chill or smth but I didn't. Anyways..this is it for today's sch. Tml will be another boring day for sure, actually everyday seems to be boring. Got a presentation this thursday, quite unprepared for it. Hopefully it would turn out okay for me..

Alright all signing off nites ~
am i juz being paranoid or are certain ppl juz pretending that I dun exist anymore...

Today a rather short day, went sch early at 9 for grp meeting. Lessons officially started at 11.10 . Lecturer was really rushing through the slides coz there were too many slides to be completed in 2 hrs plus there were stuff to be written on the notes therefore lecturer needs to rush. She was rather mad at those ppl who didn't turned up for lecture. She also said that if those who dun wan to come shldn't even get ppl to tap for them or to tap & go off. If those who do it again, she's going to do manual attendance taking.

After that left for home already , was quite early , around 1+ . Then the day juz moves like normally everyday life. Everyday seems to be the same, nth special seems to want to appear to surprise me. I feel that I hv no life. Haiz I'm like this..
Anyways.. got a new song on my playlist, listen to it, it's very nice, I love it. Do listen to it =)

it juz seems not to stop bleeding..

Ok I'm back blogging ^^ Was rather unwell on friday. Got a fever , headache & sore throat . Got better by ytd leaving a sore throat til today. Hopefully by tml I will be okay. On friday , I was so sick that when I step into my house I juz went straight flat onto the sofa without saying a word. Mum had to take me to the doctor at night despite me not wanting to. I know if I waste more time, dun think I'll be able to blog today. Thank god..

Anyways..since I got ytd I started to watched some movies. Okay.. was quite lame.. HSM 3 & Pokemon . LOL ! Today I watched Scorpion King 2 . I was seriously bored til I decided to watch all this movies. Also did research for my project for the presentation this coming thursday morning . I wish we dun screw up like what happened in our previous presentation.

Alright all.. think I'm gonna go watch another movie. HaHa. Gd nites ~
i know my love is there waiting for me

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !! Okay this post is quite late though . HaHa !! Anyways.. it seems like any other day to me. Today was also my youngest uncle death anniversary. When I was still young , he passed away. I dun hv much memory abt him. It's quite sad that 3 of my dad's brothers , my uncles , had already passed on. Time sure past very fast. Ytd I was still sitting in front of my laptop & watching tv, sound like I'm emo-ing or smth. LoL, anyways it's the new year , so shld stop emo-ing so often now. Shld learn to look on the bright side of life.

I hv a qn for myself as well as those who might read my blog. Is there a need for a change in this new year ? Or things shld juz stick to status quo ? Shld I hv a change in myself to help make others more happy or shld I juz stick to what I am & juz try & improve to be better without a need to change? Tags are welcome , I won't mind ur comments given.

Alright everybody.. see u in my next post
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