Friday, July 31, 2009
@ 10:14 AM
Eminem-Beautiful lyrics
Songwriters: Mathers, Marshall;
Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has their private world
Where they can be alone

Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me?
I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fucking depressed
I just can't seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump

I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
And in order for me to pick the mic back up

I don't know how or why or when
I ended up this position I'm in
I'm starting to feel dissin' again
So I decided just to pick this pen

Up and try to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit
Or come to grips with the fact that I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet

And I know some shit's so hard to swallow
But I can't just sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow but I know one fact
I'll be one tough act to follow

One tough act to follow
I'll be one tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you'd have to walk a thousand miles

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others' minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others' eyes

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you
So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything's so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check
The temperature of the room

Just as soon as I walk in, it's like all eyes on me
And so I try to avoid any eye contact
'Cause if I do that then it opens the door
For conversation, like I want that

I'm not looking for extra attention
I just wanna be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom

I don't need no fucking man servant
Trying to follow me around and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of 'em ain't even funny like

Ha! Marshall you're so funny man
You should be a comedian, god damn!"
Unfortunately I am
I just hide behind the tears of a clown

So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't gotta trade our shoes
And you ain't gotta walk no thousand miles

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others eyes

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you
So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands we're dealt
We gotta take these cards ourselves
And flip 'em, don't expect no help

Now I could've either just sat on my ass
And pissed and moaned
Or take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my own

I was never the type of kid
To wait by the door and pack his bags
I sat on the porch and hoped and prayed
For a dad to show up who never did

I just wanted to fit in
Every single place, every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid

And Edna always told me
Keep making that face and it'll get stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue tryna talk like that

'Til I stuck my tongue on that frozen stop sign pole
At 8 years old
I learned my lesson then
'Cause I wasn't trying to impress my friends no more

But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
'Cause where you see it, from where you're sittin
It's probably 110% different

I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each others shoes at least
What size you wear? I wear 10's
Let's see if you can fit your feet

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each others eyes

Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you
So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you

So don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you
So

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has their private world
Where they can be alone

Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me?
I'm reaching out for you

Yeah, to my babies
Stay strong, daddy will be home soon

And to the rest of the world
God gave you shoes to fit you
So put 'em on and wear 'em
Be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny
Don't ever let anyone tell you you ain't beautiful
Friday, July 24, 2009
@ 10:07 PM
Been a wk since I've blogged. Busy everyday since attachment hv started & finally a wk has ended. Dun wanna talk abt the horrible experinces I've faced during the attachment so far. Totally gross out. ><
I juz know that some nurses are really nice compared to others.

Today after shift went out with Devnath, Germaine tagged along while waiting for me to finish shift. LOL. Stayed at Velocity 's Hagen Daaz ? dunno how to spell.. Haha , for quite some time. Was talking crap for like 1hr or so.

Germaine supposed to go work at 6 but decided not to go & ended up joining us to go vivo. Took a bus down from Velocity. Reached there at around 5.45 ? Went to Candy Empire , bought some stuff. Was damn hungry , so decided to go across the road to eat at MacDonalds. Finished everything at around 7. Walked around there for awhile , then headed to the mrt station.

Devnath & Germaine were thinking of whr to go after I left , tot of my place but then didn't come over. Haha . So I juz took the mrt back on my own.

Yup so end of today's post .

Sian ah, still got 3 more wks of attachment. 1wk finally over lor. After attachment , going to hv exams. >< Shld start studying already sia, if not cnt make it , then hv to repeat modules..mafan. Btr start soon...

Alright guys.. later ~
I'm reconsidering what I've chosen after a yr+...

Saturday, July 18, 2009
@ 10:45 PM
Back with another post. Today sat , woke up at 9. Slept close to 1 ytd. Juz couldn't fall aslp , hv thoughts in my head of how the attachment coming up is like , how I would do in my exams , how would I do in my next sem so on.. Everything juz flashed into my head.

Anyways , godbro came over today at around 10. Devnath came over at around 2.. played with sis, godbro , neighbour & Devnath downstairs for quite awhile. After that , Devnath went to meet up with Germaine. So followed him to wait at the SA bus-stop.

After that went back to play with them for awhile, bought a yo-yo for my sis coz she wanna play but end up breaking the string. After that got called up back home. However we stayed outside to play soccer for awhile. Then got called in to go bathe, so ya stopped at around 6+.

Was searching my cabinet or locker whatever u called it for my nursing stuff then also searching for my $200 kept inside. Thought it went missing seh , so searched until like siao , not me but my maid & sis. Then I juz went to bathe come back , search again found it. Weird ah , search the same location before but didn't see it there wor.

Anyways..I'm done with my post.

Nth much to talk about , juz the usual daily rountine & stuff.. maybe the purpose of my posts is juz for ppl who dun talk to me or those I seldom talk to nowadays to know what's going on with my life. Some may see it as I'm doing great , this is all external , not the internal. Sometimes, internal stuff juz can't be said out. Maybe I'll bring it with me down my grave.

Probably hv less time to blog this few wks.. til the next post..
I'm juz a mere shelter or refuge..
Friday, July 17, 2009
@ 11:59 PM
Great.. finally presentations are over since thur.

Let's juz go straight to today. Morning is usual laptop using while waiting for Devnath to come over. He reached here around 12. Then we sit down , continue using com then awhile later ate lunch. Went to bathe , then ard 3.. we left my place.

Damn steady lah , we walked & bus-ed around to 4 or 5 places. 1st was bugis junction , that was when Devnath started asking me what present I want for my upcoming birthday. So yeah..while walking about , I gave him a whole list. Then after that we went suntec , walked about then bought shoes at like 70% discount.. ownage lor. Then after that we went down to erm..raffles link ? Aiya basically alot of places lah.

Next was Peninsula plaza ? Got Devnath's shoelaces & skinny jeans there. Next was Funan Digital Mall right beside it. Basically , we went everywhr to look at sports stuff, clothes etc. K so from Funan there we took 147 back to my place at ard 6+ ? Then Devnath took cab back home from Potong Pasir Mrt Station. So yeah.. went home after that blabla..

End of Story..

Attachment starting from this monday for 1 month. Probably going to dread this attachment lots..but well , dun think I've a choice, it's part of the course unless I withdraw from this course, that is. After that still hv exam, haiz stress shit. Was wondering if there was even some time for a breather. Probably going to end up studying even on my birthday...

Til my next post..
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
@ 11:06 AM
Start off with monday.. projects etc til 6 + ..then ytd was presentation on research methods then did project til 9.. LOL ownage lah the latest I stayed so far in sch library to do project.

Then today no sch coz no lessons..tml presentation on smoking & submission of statistics project through our blog. Then friday no sch leh, next wk onwards got attachment for a month til the wk before my bday. So yeah..maybe it's a gd thing.. but then so happen my bday is the 2nd day of the Chinese 7th Month.

Anyone believe in smth called fairness ? I think that in this world.. whenever there are ppl who think about themselves.. there is almost no such thing as fairness.. I dun believe in fairness anymore. No matter what we do or how we judge things, there will be no fairness. Sometimes we hv no choice but to accept the fact that we hv to live in a world of unfairness. Build up ourselves for this future problem we will faced.

It's time to live in reality
nth is permanent..it's reality
Saturday, July 11, 2009
@ 9:35 PM
Days hv passed so fast. I rmb the last time I blogged was last sunday. Many things had happened. Monday presentation & thur presentation. Everyday seems to end late , bcoz of project as well as sch ending late as well. Next wk another 2 presentations & stats blog to submit to lecturer. Everything seems to be passing so quickly. A wk doesn't really seem like a wk at all , juz like a couple of time passing days.

Sometimes I'll think back..hv I really done everything in the right way or hv things turn out the way I wan it to be ? Has my life ever turned out to be the way I wan it to be ? Why is everything like juz touch & go. Things ain't permanent like it seems to me before. Days juz seem to past like this, without me consciously knowing that a day is actually over. Do I really live for the purpose of living ? There hv to be a reason for my purpose here.

I guess life has to go on no matter how we live with it. Maybe in time to come, I will discover my purpose.

Til the next post..
I'm permanent..
Sunday, July 5, 2009
@ 10:43 PM
K let's start with friday.. early morning got woke up by my mum to go with her to Ikea Tampines to get the curtains. Erm..after that went back , met Devnath at my place to slack after his MST. Then waited for Germaine to come over. We had to go through SA to pick her, haha then Devnath tell the security guard auntie going to take smth. Funny sia. So stayed at my place , had lunch & left my place at ard 4+ to go Kovan's Heartland Mall. My little sis bought lots of stuff. LOL. Germaine followed my sis to walk around while me & Devnath juz sit down & juz talk. Left close to 7. Then ya end of friday's post.

K saturday..ytd.. Went out in the morning to national library again to return books my godbro & sis borrowed the last time. After that , went over to Bugis Junction. Went past the Singtel shop so mum was wondering if we could change our hp or not yet. So juz went in to check. Then can change , so Mum & I traded in our previous phone for the new ones. Mum got a Nokia E63 while I got SE W705. After that , we walked around for awhile before going to dad's store to meet him. Then after that , went back. Godbro came over coz no one at home to look after him & also bcoz no sch on monday for them coz of Youth Day. ==

After that was meeting up with Devnath , Greg & Nick to play bball at ard 3+.. After bball then soccer. Wah whole body pain, kena knocked down by Greg while playing bball also. Haha, imagine the impact , my ass is still in pain sia. Haha, then my slipper tore , so played barefooted for awhile then kena blisters on both feet. After that , went down to the study corner at my place for awhile then left liao. LOL . K shall end the post here.

Now today, erm nth much happen. Juz that I woke up with my whole body in pain. Eh sunday..nth much.. juz preparing for sch like packing my bag etc. Also preparing for tml's presentation.. the lecturer dun even understand what the heck I was asking her abt.. haiz forget it. The rest of the day..sian lah , juz slack around stuff like that.

Tml starting sch liao , like finally. But with presentation, totally spoil the mood of returning to sch. Like I dun go sch for the purpose for presenting.. I hope sch won't bore me , now I can't wait for the wkend to arrive coz it's going to be the only time left to do abit of revision & rest myself.

Well..so ya.. til my next post then.. nite all , thx for reading my post !
selfless to a little selfishness..
Thursday, July 2, 2009
@ 10:16 PM
Hello ppl ~ After a few days nv blogged .. I'm back.

Let's summarise starting with tuesday. Erm..Devnath came over in the morning around 10+. Was supposed to be studying but then nv coz like so easy or smth like that. So he was using some program to fix our head to some random videos with our heads on it. To know what the heck I'm talking abt..go to his blog. LOL ! Germaine left sch halfway to come meet us at my place around 1-2 +. Left my place around 3+ to go to the grand cathay to watch Transformers 2 : Revenge of the Fallen. The movie seriously is damn nice. Those who haven't catch the movie shld go watch, worth the time watching. K then after that , went home 1st coz it was like already 7+. LOL !
K forget abt tues..

Moving on to wednesday. Started with group project at 11. We ended real late like at 6 ? LOL ! Supposed to meet Devnath for bball with Nick at like 5 ? So paiseh, last min hv to rush for the project to be done. Played bball in SA at the 6th floor. Siao lor , we stayed til 7.30 ard there. Then headed off. Haha ! secret staircase gate locked liao. Bo bian , hv to climb over the ledge or whatever that leads to the PA room the area there to come down. I had my bag & laptop with me sia, Devnath as well. Somemore the thing we were standing on to get off is not solid hard, juz some metal thing. So after that , nick went off , I followed Devnath to buy drink then headed to my place the bus-stop to wait for him to board the bus then went back up to my place.
So let's juz end here..

K today..really nth much actually did paper cranes (290) & other stuff. Chatted on msn for the whole morning til aftn ard 2+. Watched the Youth Games 2009 Live on Chnl 5 under the basketball section. 3 on 3 half-court. Sian liao, juz slacked around the whole aftn. So ya.. nth much abt today lor.
Might slp earlier coz tml mum will be waking me up earlier to go Ikea Tampines to help her buy the curtains for her 1st. She working mah, bo bian , cnt buy. Then meeting Devnath at ard close to noon time tml , then see what we're going to do..

So ya..til tml's post maybe ? Nite all ~
if today was ur last day , tml was too late , would u say goodbye to ytd ?