Friday, May 29, 2009
@ 3:41 PM
back with a post since tues.

K wed was mum's bday.. I didn't get anything for her..didn't know what to get. My aim of making a paper rose for her had failed. I'm such a failure. Maybe I'm juz not the type who is gd at such stuff. Forget it.

K thur..ytd can't rmb what happened. I only rmb that I've been up late recently..trying to study, trying to slp , trying to play. But..whenever I wanna study..I feel slpy..whenever I wanna slp..I'm juz can't fall aslp...whenever I wanna play..I juz got no mood to do so. What the heck is wrong with me ? Maybe I shld take my brain out & see what's going on inside.

Prac test is on monday , then tues & thur got stats & research methods. Still not yet prepared for any of them. Probably going to bang wall when the test comes.

K then today.. practice skill at 9 today. After that went to find lecturer to ask qn but not around. Left a msg for him, he only got back to me when I was on my way home. Anyways..after finding lecturer not around , went to eat , then bio lecture for abt an hr or so coz the projectile died on us. Went to find another lecturer to clarify qns. Left sch at around 2+. Took the circle line today..quite empty since there's only a few stops. Think I shld go get my train concession tml or smth. Then also to cut my hair..quite long already, somemore monday got prac test, btr to look neater.

ALright then til the next post..
am I really needed or am I juz a want ?
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
@ 10:57 PM
k back with another post. I'm actually damn tired right now..my mind is probably elsewhr..

Today..went to East Coast Park with my classmates. K let's see.. Mizan , Hafiz , Aisyah , Hawa , Murni , Naqiah , Wei Fen & Shimah with her family. I met a grp of them on the bus to ECP. Had to walk pass the sch to get to the back of the sch. 1 of my ex-teacher was walking in the opposite direction from me & look at me while I was walking said that I looked very different..I juz laughed. 1st teacher who said I looked different..omg...

K anyways..was abit lost for awhile but then found our way to ECP eventually. Were playing a few games which we would usually play. Then came this game..dunno what's the name of it. Consist of 2 teams, hv to take the tennis ball & shoot down the slippers tower or smth like that. Played halfway..then my left leg suddenly cramp. Omg..was so painful that I had to stop. So sad lah..then rain somemore...zzz

K cut the long story short.. lots of cam-whoring. Haha went to wash up at ard 3+ , then headed to the bowling alley to play a round of bowling til abt 5+. Took bus , train then bus again . Leg still in pain, very irritating. By the time reach home ard 7 already.

Got dad to help me use ointment to rub my leg to make it feel a little btr. He say is muscle tear, few days then will okay. So I'll limp abit for these few days lor. Haha..wanna feel btr soon, pain is like so getting on my nerves. Think so far, this is the worst of them all.

K lah..gonna do some stuff then go to bed leh. Cya all ~
shelter u through the sun or rain,a shoulder for u when u're tired..
Sunday, May 24, 2009
@ 4:10 PM
I've juz noticed that I've not blogged since wednesday. Haha many things had happened.

Let's go straight to today..

Started out early at ard 8+, woke up & found out that my mei mei was watching "the wedding game". Watched til almost 10, came out of parents' room to watch tv outside in the living room. At ard 11, mei mei say wanna go outside to get some stuff & wrapping paper to wrap present for my mum. Til now, I still dunno how to fold the paper rose. I give up seriously, I nid more time to learn it. Thinking of smth else to get for my mum now. I wonder what will she like..

Anyways got more paper to fold my paper cranes but have to stop folding for awhile coz I'm having lots of things to do. Project work research to do , test , presentations etc. Everything is piling up. I also bought the paper to fold paper stars. I'm still learning how to fold it properly. Now is like anyhow fold. HaHa

Doing my research til tonight.. I'm still a little unsure abt how to go about finding my info. Hopefully I'll get stuff done by tml. So tiring when all events start to occur one after another. I nid to take a little breather or else I might juz breakdown like I did way in the past.

Alright then..I'll update when I'm free. Gonna be busy..
me stress...
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
@ 9:22 PM
K back blogging after finishing my theory test.

Started today at 11.10 with social & health psychology lectures then followed by lab. Nv really pay attention to them coz was rather tired & also studying for theory test. Used the lab practice period to study for the test also lor. Lecturer was in another grp looking at them practice the skill. So the rest were all studying.

He let us off earlier, then the same gang, June , Mizan , Murni , Naqiah & Me went to macs to eat & study. Get well soon k Murni (=

After that was our test at 4 but we were allowed to enter at 3.45. So went in got ready, got some reading time. I looked at the SAQ, I started to shake my head, jialat I cnt rmb what I studied. But nvm it's over liao lah. HaHa.

Nth else to blog abt leh..til the next post k ? nite all (=
once it's gone it's nv coming back
Monday, May 18, 2009
@ 10:46 PM
Currently in slp mode..haha I hate staying up late.. but I chose to for some reasons which makes me wanna stay on & force me to. The one which forces me to stay up is to study for the upcoming theory test this wed. I seriously feel that this test is going to be a challenge for me. Many things to understand & know how to put them in words when it comes down to the test itself. I hope that I will do fine. Time seems to be running out for me. Many events juz come & go. No time to pause & take a little breather like before.

Many problems have arrived.. shld I take the time to figure out a plan to counter-act against the problems I'm facing maybe in the distant future. Everything may seems far but it's actually very near.

Dad recently lose a customer who always get her supply of fish etc from my dad. Then so happen one fine day, the lady boss daughter went to look for another supplier which bastard my dad in the process leaving him with 1 less customer to get more income into the family. Recently dad is having dinner tgt with us as a family..shld I count it as a blessing to be sitting tgt to hv dinner or shld I feel upset bcoz of the action of one which could cause sadness in many. I know my dad is feeling very upset over this matter. Usual males are those who hide them up including my dad. I feel his sadness coz he had lost a customer which could be mean alot that could provide us with our 3 meals. Dad's exhuasted, I see it from his aged face. As his son, what more could I do but to study hard, get my diploma, start working & be the next member who will support the family's 3 meals.

I juz hope everything might be fine soon. Ppl think studying is tough , when it comes to work, it's much worst. It's called entering into the real world where u're alone to face future endeavors coming ur way. So much for blogging..go to get down to work.

til the next post...
I dun live to regret everyday I live in this world..
Sunday, May 17, 2009
@ 9:41 PM
Back with another post ~

K start with morning... went basketball with Devnath with mei mei tagging along. Played for awhile b4 2 guys came along to ask if we wanna play match. So juz play lor thinking nth much will happen, juz a game. Kaoz ! Didn't expect to get hit by my own basketball in my face when Devnath pass me to ball. ==" Suddenly felt blood rush, but luckily no blood came out from my nose.

After basketball , went KFC to eat then went to shoot a few hoops for awhile b4 heading for my place. Okay even Devnath hv difficulty learning how to fold a paper rose let alone me. K then after trying to make a rose..failed then ate lunch at my place. After that Devnath left, then I went to bathe. After that studied for abt an hr or two. Uncle came to gv mei mei tution for abt 1& a half hr. Complaining that after 3wks got no more job.

The rest of the day..sian lah. Was feeling damn uncomfortable all over like what like that. Probably the hit to my nose cause me to blur out or smth. Currently in a very mixed state, hopefully nth wrong with me ah. But Devnath dun worry, if smth happen , I won't blame u, I blame myself for reacting too slowly. Dun worry, no hard feelings.

Alright then til my next post... (=
a sign of leaving...
Saturday, May 16, 2009
@ 8:50 PM
Woots !! 200 paper cranes at the moment. K I juz noticed I didn't blog for days.

Let's go straight to today. Supposed to go gym in the morning with Devnath but then was too tired. Then tml we going to bball instead. Very long nv play already, finally could play again, probably rusty now.

Well..so stayed home folded my paper cranes, trying very hard to fold my 1st paper rose. Pls if anyone know how to do it, kindly teach me how to or juz show it to me.

Went to grandma's place to collect the sofa at ard 5+. Thew away the previous ones coz mum said they were spoilt so decided to juz dump it downstairs. Tot the sofa at grandma's place was freaking heavy but then it wasn't. HaHa. The one at home is the heavy one coz it's made with solid wood.

Okay..nth else to blog abt already, lazy to talk abt some stuff, gotta move on anyways. Til the next post...
accelerate towards the future & dun look back...
Thursday, May 14, 2009
@ 10:22 PM
Current number of paper cranes.. 160. Still very long..I hope I can wait for the day when I finished my 1000th piece.

Current status : About to fall aslp..very exhuasted, more work coming up, staying up late. Need to use the wkend to slp a little longer before I faint bcoz of exhuastion.

Made my little sis got lectured today by my dad til she almost cried. I tried to convince myself that it's for her own good coz she had not been paying much attention to her tution & her attitude towards it is not good. I hope my little sis will understand my good intentions. I dun wan my little sis to end up like me. When u know it's too late, it's too late. Time can nv be reversed.

End of today's post.
I did it bcoz I didn't wan u to be like me, mei mei...
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
@ 9:19 PM
Didn't blog for awhile already.. let's juz talk abt today lah.

K started at 9.. had to take temp again..irritating. After that went for bio lab. The lecturer was late, abt half an hr. Was waiting until damn sian. Lab last for an hr & a half after that. After that was break for 2hrs. Went to eat 1st, then went to get our new ezlink card. After that went to the IT sale near the entrance. After that, June , Murni & Naqiah got themselves laptop skins. I hv no interest in any of the skins. HaHa. After that went library to do discussion.

K then after discussion then went for statistics tutorial that lasted for an hr. Then went back to the library to continue discussion on another module. After that was research methods lecture for 2hr then adult nursing for 1hr. Was talking abt so many things with Joanna. Haha, wasn't really listening to lecture.

Still in the process of the folding my paper cranes. Now at 105 paper cranes. I planned to hit 120 tonight but I dun think I can make it lah. Very tired already. Later I do & do..nv do work, kena scold sia.

Alright then til the next post. =)
Sunday, May 10, 2009
@ 10:04 PM
Happy Mothers' Day to all mums & grandmas out there !!

Alright a short post..currently folding paper cranes, aiming for a thousand of them, currently only at 60 cranes, will try to make as many asap. Aiming to learn how to make a paper rose for my mum on her bday this month on the 27th. =)

K til the next post...
Friday, May 8, 2009
@ 8:44 PM
K actually I dunno what to blog abt..so let's juz talk abt today in sch lah.

Started freaking early at 8. We got back our lecturer, Mr Chan smth smth.. but then I think Ms Irene Lee was btr in the sense that I feel that she is more approachable if I dun understand anything. Besides, we see her everyday on the 1st wk of sch, so more familiar lah. K today's lab was on practice session, very sian. Wanted to slp liao.

After that was break, went to eat then library. Some use com some went into this room to watch movie, Shrek 2. Watched for abt an hr, then had to leave for bio lecture. Had some prize presentation for those who made it into the director's list. Then lecture started & ended in abt 1hr+. Yes, alot of us were tired, but I dunno how come I became so alert & was listening in class. Probably..I dunno lah. HaHa.

After that go back home, then use com for awhile. After that lie on the sofa & slp for awhile at ard 4. Wah really damn tired sia. Lucky I slp liao, if not maybe now I won't be posting this. I think tonight I staying up later lah if I could tahan. HaHa. Reasons behind it..dunno. HeHe

Alright til the nxt post. =)
maybe in my next life...
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
@ 9:30 PM
Eh ytd nv blog..coz quite tired ah..so juz chat on msn & did quizzes on "how well do you know..". Haha.

Let's blog abt today. Started at 11.10 today with psychology lectures for 2hr , social & health psych if I'm not wrong. Then lab class at 1 til 2.50. Today was on urinary catheterisation. Haha hv to learn abt how to insert catheter for male patients but then lecturer say smth abt only doctors can insert coz it's complicated. == Hv to learn coz might be tested in out ICA. Ya then after that, went for lunch with June, Mizan , Murni & Naqiah. Wah sian lor, hv to go take our temp for the aftn shift before going for lunch. Was helping June with the movie she's making. Chatted awhile..did the quizzes on 'how well do you know...". HaHa !

Left sch at ard 4+ then headed home. Did some stuff , read up on certain things etc. K lah nth much to talk abt.

Til the next post..
as long as u're happy..I'm contented
Monday, May 4, 2009
@ 9:16 PM
K let's start with today bah..since ytd nth much except bball with Greg & Alton. Did the what..lunge or whatever u call it, make my thighs ache like siao. HaHa, same with Greg also.

K nvm..start today offically now. HaHa, k start with eh..the sociology lecture then bio lecture b4 break. Thought maybe today can see En Jie in sch. But nv, so it's ok maybe another time. K after break lecture again on pharmacology..abit the sian coz the lights were turned off, let little bit of light only..make one slpy. But still can make it lah,understand abt half-half. K then next was lab class. Today's topic was on the dunno what feeding, dunno how to spell, spell wrong here paiseh. HaHa. K I juz sat ard then decided to use the desktop there to charge my mp3. LOL !! My mp3 battery left 1 bar only, lucky got sch com to use. Cnt live without music sia.

K after that back home. Hmm..I shld say at the end of the day..I was a little emo, I walked very fast to avoid letting my classmates know that I'm actually not feeling so gd, so I juz kinda took a little breather alone. From now onwards..I'm not gonna emo ok. But if u ppl see me keeping very quiet, it's not bcoz I'm emo-ing, it's bcoz I really hv nth to talk abt or I'm juz plain tired. Pls dun keep asking what's wrong with me ok. Know that some of u are quite concerned, so juz to let u ppl know.

Alright til the next post.. (=
non- emo-kid
Saturday, May 2, 2009
@ 6:48 PM
K ah, nv blog ytd..no mood to. K today, sat, boring day. Started like every other sat. In the aftn, nut asked me to go play bball with him at the CC. Was hesitating as 1st, but then juz go lah, besides I hv stuff to get over. So played at ard 3+. Wah today alot of ppl, at 1st no one then came ppl asking to play match. I think today is the 1st time I played so many matches switching teams here & there. Played til almost 6. Came back awhile ago, went to bathe. K ah,end of today.

Abt ytd..was rather emo coz of what happened the day on thursday. It's really sad to break someone's heart without even knowing she's juz keeping quiet over it. Disappeared for a yr, hiding behind to cheer me up at times. Maybe we shldn't hv been tgt or know each other in the 1st place, I won't end up breaking ur heart without knowing so. It's my fault..I took everything too lightly, without considering ur thoughts & emotions. I juz chose to let u go, hoping u could find someone btr than me. Our relationship couldn't last, we are too far apart. It's not the age problem, it's how far apart we are. It's all my fault..I will nv forgive myself for causing u to hide behind the walls sad & depressed without anyone to gv u the concern, the love that u needed. I dun wan u to forgive me or anything..all I wish is for u to be well. Dun always look on the what bad things is coming ur way but on the bright side. Life have to go on, I do not deserved someone as good as u. Pls do take care of ur health. I'll miss u.

Til the next post...
breaking hearts is not my forte..